Don't know about you all, but I feel like this January lasted an eternity. Not for any bad reason, though--in fact, I think it's kind of a good thing. It means that
nothing intensely traumatic happened that month, haha. I think I'd rather have time crawl past me rather than disappear before I can blink.
Anyway, sorry for the radio silence on here, especially this past week--I've been caught up in some other projects. I've worked really hard on my latest entry for the Yesterweb zine
!! This entry took a lot of research, it was a topic I really had to dig to find proper information on. I'll post on my Neocities profile
when the issue goes live!
So...what else have I been up to...? Well, life finds ways to keep me busy, lol. We got blasted with a huge blizzard. The snowbanks come up to just above my knees, they're almost 2 feet tall...!!
be sent out to shovel, but then the snow would just pile back up by an hour later. My chickens were miserable. When it gets below freezing like that, someone has to bring fresh water out to the coop every few hours, because
even their heated water dishes freeze in such low temperatures.
TW: Talk of Weight/Weight changes
I've been (slowly) cleaning my closet out since last month. It's something I've put off for years--I have a lot
of clothes, and my closet is a very sentimental thing for me.
I used to be a fashion design student, after all...It's embarrassing, but my clothes used to be my whole identity. So there's a lot of handmade items, or things I thrifted and altered
heavily. And I've tried a lot of things on, and...most of it doesn't fit me anymore!!!
has changed so much. I've definitely gained some weight during the pandemic...It's probably a bit stupid of me to have hoped I could still squeeze into the clothes I wore back when I was 15, but...I
did, for some reason. LOL.
In the end, I've ended up with 4 whole bags to bring to a donation center. I'm even parting with the few designer pieces I thought might be worth a buck
on Ebay, I can't be assed to deal with it. It still hurts, though--It feels like I've lost a part of myself. But admitting that feels even more foolish. I'll
try to look at this as an opportunity to build a new wardrobe, something more appropriate for adult-me.
M is on board with my quest to lose a few pounds, and we've been walking twice a week at the highschool. It's been nice to have someone to talk to in the evenings. We both look forward to it a lot! Being
trapped inside from the snow means mom has been baking a lot, though...Don't know if our walks help with all the cookies I've been eating, but we walk about 4-5 miles each night!
The bad weather has made it hard to stream
. And I've been learning a lot about myself as I attempt to go live once a week--streaming is
actually really hard!
I run out of things to talk about pretty fast. I'm not really all that good at cracking jokes, and I stutter a lot. My limit usually caps out at around 2 hours...by the time I hit
the "end stream" button, I feel like I'm gonna pass out, lol. From anxiety, probably. But I've only just started, really...I've only been trying to do this semi-regularly for like, maybe a month? I'm trying not
too get too discouraged. I'm really lucky to have a few friends who try to watch me, even if I fumble half of the time.